~~Not Long Now~~

The world drifts

As I fade

The world shivers

As I strengthen

The rain falls

As I burn

Things seem to change

Seem to rearrange

I breathe but no one

Seems to notice

The movements of my chest

There is never rest

I whimper

And I weep

I howl

And I cry

I beg to be allowed to die

And then they tell me

"Chin up, love

"You'll pull through

"I know you hurt

"But I hurt too

"You won't break

"Because I need you."

You need me?

Do I need you?

I say I do

But who can tell

If that is

Even true?

I want to cry

I want to scream

But you ignore my tears

You ignore the scars

You don't seem to notice

How much I'm hurt

You continue with your words

Your logic faultless

In your own eyes

Your heart pure

In all eyes but mine

Don't you believe me?

I tremble and I try

To face up to my past

You take my hand

Hold it tight

Encouraging me

With squeezing grip

I don't pull away

Even though it burns

And I remind myself

That one day

I'll be away

From everything

I don't want to be here

But I don't want to leave

I can't hurt you

Or give you cause to grieve

Everything I do

Is for you

But one day I know

I'll be away

And you will need

To let go

For I'll never return

From where I go that day

I'll go into madness

Into isolation

Shattered

Broken

The world will pass me by

Without regard

I will be missed

But not long remembered

My fame is always imagined

And it was never anything more

It won't be long now

Until I am gone

So say your goodbyes

Tell me your prayers

Hold me close

And kiss me

I am your girl

I am your dream

I will always be

The sad story

That you tell

So your kids don't

End up just

Like me.