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Monday, October 15, 2012

~~The Amount of Things I Fake: Life Post~~

I'm fifteen now, and I seem to be getting into something I can't handle. It's the numbness. All the numbness, getting worse and worse. It's been increasing for a month now, and I can honestly say that it frightens me. I want to feel like I care again, about school, about life, about love. I'm scared. I just don't want to fake it any more.

I'll show you what I fake....

  • Caring about Ted enough to talk to him constantly
  • Wanting to pass my courses
  • Caring about this blog
  • How I look
  • How much I write
  • Minecraft
  • Animes
  • Black Butler
  • My future
  • My past
  • My happiness
  • My family
  • My friends
  • My body

I fake caring about all of those things....

My life....

I just don't like this any more.

I just want to get out, somehow....

Please, help me....


azrael said...

When false hoods become reality, it is what makes you. You are what you have made yourself, fake or otherwise. As for me... My emotions are once again hidden away. I'm safe

Alexandra Wong~~ said...

I am closed off as well now. The diamond wall....It's all there is now. Every aspect of my personality has become nothing but what people expect to see.