Can I Even Feel?

Can I even feel?

Is anything here real?

"You loved her, right?

"Or was that just another trick of the night?"

I can't look at you

I don't know what to do

You're my best friend

But our time may one day come to an end

I'm drowning, falling

The agony is calling

Out to me

And I need to see

If I can wear a mask

And escape from all who ask

Me if I'm okay

What a bad question to ask of me today

Do I look fine?

Is my life sublime?

Don't you see my tears

As I'm drowning in my fears?

Do I even feel?

Nothing within me is real

What is love?

Are there gods above?

What is good? What is bad?

What is happy? What is sad?

Why can't I feel

I guess I'll have to deal

And try to be okay

Maybe I'll make it one day

I know you need me

So I'll hide this inner agony

And be strong for you

Even though I don't know what to do.