~~Half-Remembered Nightmare~~

I wake in dread

Panting for breath, begging

Pleading with my head

Asking not to be remembering

The things that haunted me

The blue eyes

The lipstick lips that tore at me

As they spoke the lies

"You're a loser, a cunt, a whore!"

"How'd you get in this school?

"Did your face break the glass door?"

"Normally girls rule, but you just drool."

"Get out of my face

"You pathetic bitch

"You'd better learn your place

"And it ain't among a school for the rich."

I hear the voices

I hear the laughter

I try to make different choices

But it just gets louder

I can't escape

I hear the sound whenever I'm awake

My heart has taken on a new shape

This isn't something I can shake

I want to hurt back

I want to make them cry

I want to go on the attack

Punish them for the lies

But I know I'm unable

To make them pay

I wish someone would enable

Me to stand up to it today

But no one but me seems to hear

No one but me seems to get hurt

No one else has reasons to fear

No one else is terrified to wear a skirt

A skirt that won't fit

Won't be right

I just can't take it

I want to get out of here tonight

But, no, my mom's calling

Telling me it's time to go

The bus is waiting

And now it's time for the horror show

I try to get dressed nice

Comb my hair the best I can

But I know I've still got lice

From my mom's last man

I try my hardest to be good

But it isn't working

I just wish that I could

Cause them some suffering

People say high school isn't forever

That I'll get out one day

But I can't go on never

Being able to make them pay

But for now I can't break free

For now I'm trapped here

Will someone please help me?

When I'm paralysed by fear...?