~~What Am I Living For?~~

I live for the dreaming

I live for the dying

I live for the hours spent

Blogging, tapping away at the keys

Trying to formulate

My wild, unformed thoughts

Into things meant to be read

By the entire freaking world

I live for the hope

In everyone's eyes

Hope for the future

Hope of recovery

Hope of a fresh start

Hope of a new friend

Hope of a new dawn

I live for the nights

Of curling up

Watching movies, kissing and feeling

Each other's warmth

Tickling and laughter

Tenderness and love, sweetness

I live for the memories

Of the people and times

Long gone by

Of the things I'd forgot

Or the people I'd simply left

Without so much as a goodbye

I want to reach out

To all those people

And tell them I'm sorry

For leaving

Without repaying you

For all the things you had done

For me

I live for the wishes

Of a better time

Of worse times

I live for you

I live for my friends

I live for my blog

I live for my love of life

I live for Egypt

I live for Venice

I live for a pair of boys

Who chased after me down the Nile

Calling out to me

I live for Wahid

Who fought for my hand

In marriage

So long ago, in Egypt

I live for a hole

In Delphi, where I found

A pretty little stone

I live for

The hell in my life

I live, I live, I live

I live for me.