~~This Time It's Different by Evans Blue~~

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Sunday, November 18, 2012

~~Beautiful When You're Broken~~

Your eyes are shut tightly
You can barely breathe

You're holding on to me
Crying out to me, "Please!"


"Please won't you help me?
"Make my world okay?
"Take away my agony
"And give me back the day?"

I feel my heart shatter
As I hold you close
The shadows don't matter
Even though they cling like clothes

They hide your brightness
So I am the only one that sees
I'll paint your likeness
Where it'll be washed away by the sea

I'll stand upon the shore
And watch you play
Hoping you would need me forever more
Waiting for the day

To end again, so I can hold you
So I can be the only one
To see the good in you
Until the night is done

When you're happy
You just ignore me
Until you run back, needing me
Only in agony

Am I sad about this?
No, as long as I
Get to feel your kiss
Even if it's given while you cry....

~~WHAT HAPPENS NEXT: Chapter Four--These Wondrous Little Folk


How I love these little folk, I think to myself bemusedly as I watch them bustle about me, their wrinkly pine-green skin shining dully in the firelight, the little black tufts of hair behind their ears and on their chests looking like oddly-colored grass. So peaceful, and yet so dangerous.
A young goblin maiden toddles over to me. She’s about knee height to me, and her little grey goblin gown drapes over her rounded frame, her curly white hair like a ball of snow on top of her head. “Sirrah! You comesies again!”
I smile, mildly confused at such an enthusiastic welcome from a stranger, when all of a sudden I recognize her. “Why, little Flopsie! You’ve grown!”
“I iz not little! I iz grown.” She pouts up at me.
I smile affectionately, and pat her on her head. She almost bites my hand off, and I laugh easily. “Ah, Flopsie, I missed you. Still learning how to fly, I see?”
Eager to please, she jumps into the air and flaps her arms, trying to fly. I catch her before she hits the ground, and sit her down on my lap. “I mizzed oo, sirrah.”
“I missed you too, little one.”
I look around me, and I see the humans slowly getting used to the goblins. Leslie was pouting, Max was entranced by them, Joey seemed to find them entertaining, and Anne…Well, as she was Anne, she found their hustle and bustle annoying.
“So freaking happy,” I hear her mutter from here.
I sigh, and smile at Flopsie reassuringly. “So, take me to your leader.”
The little goblin gets to her feet, and takes me by the hand. “Come on, sirrah. They iz waiting for oo.”
I follow her into the main area of the goblins’ home.
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As always, I am welcomed into their home. They greet me cheerily, swarming me and hugging me. The adults come up to my waist, the young ones to my knees or calves. “Avery!” calls out a familiar voice. “You’re back!”
I smile, and charge the little goblin. “Moses!” The little goblin nearly bowls me over in his enthusiasm.
“Avery, how long it’s been! I was beginning to think that perhaps you were never coming back!” He hugs me, before looking up at me with his deep blue eyes. I rub his head, smiling, before picking him up in my arms and throwing him into the air.
“I will always come back, Moses, never doubt that. You and I traveled together for a long time—do you think I could ever forget you? I was just working for Lady White, and I didn’t have even a day to myself to come up and visit you. I’m so sorry, Moses.”
The goblin looks at me, and kicks my side gently, indicating that he wants to be put back down. I set him down, and look at him solemnly. “It’s alright Avery. I’m just glad to see you again, is all. What brings you this way?”
“I’m on a quest for Lady White,” I tell him, before realizing that perhaps I cannot tell him anymore than that. “It’s confidential, my apologies.”
Moses waves it away. “No trouble at all. Can you stay the night?”
I think for a moment. Could we afford to dawdle here?
Moses breaks into my thoughts: “You’ll make a lot better time with a good night’s rest and some better food in you.”
I smile, and tell him that we will stay.
Smiling, Moses turns and goes to fetch a good meal.
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Not long after, the five of us travelers are sitting cross-legged on sequined pillows around a crudely made wooden table. Flopsie dances for us, the tambourines in her hands ringing with bells and chimes, her plain robe exchanged for one of satiny cloth and bright colors. She sings and the other goblins pound on tables, while an older goblin maiden provides dancing entertainment of a different sort. Instead of going to join most of the males, I remain seated where I am, cheering on my little friend. Her parents had been killed in a trading deal gone bad with the humans, and as I had witnessed it I’d taken it upon myself to raise her. She had barely been ankle height to me—and most of her was head. Now? Now she was nearly full-sized, full-bodied, but still with the spirit of a child.
Flopsie jumps high into the air, and flaps her arms, cawing like a bird. The few feasters  that watch her applaud, enchanted by her performance. Before long, she lands on the table again with a soft thud, and it’s then that I sense it: She’s using magic to keep herself in the air for longer.
Of course she is.
As a servant of Lady White, I am oath-bound to report anyone of any race utilizing magic with any skill so that she may be able to train them into soldiers. I couldn’t blame her for making all of her followers do that—it was, after all, how a young elf like me had come into her employ. I had been living on the edge of the forest with my family, among other elves trying to make better relationships with the humans. I had been about ten at the time that my mother, father, and sister were revealed to be Conduits. My family was taken from me, and when I fought back, I threw a soldier fifty feet. Of course, he was a very small soldier, and I was after all an elf. But I was ten at the time, which made things a lot harder. And, oh yes, did I mention that I didn’t actually lay a hand on him?
Anywho, one of Lady White’s people had been in the area, and had witnessed the event. Before I could save my family, I had been dragged away, and trained to become the perfect soldier.
The training hadn’t been easy. Lady White wasn’t exactly gentle, but yet she was the best woman around. So I fell for her.
I looked at Flopsie. If I reported her, she would undergo the same training. She would be brutalized, and the experience would only be worse for her because of the fact that she was a goblin. Not all elves were as welcoming to other species as I.
So what do I do? Report her and pray that Lady White won’t annihilate the childlike innocence I so adored from my youngest friend? Betray the people I trust most?
Or not tell, and break my oath to Lady White?
It wasn’t a choice.
In my mind I apologized, and drank down the flagon of ale I held in my hand.
Afterwards I felt better, but it didn’t make me relish the idea of lying to Lady White any more than I had before.
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The rest of the night passes by remarkably without incident. Before long, the four of us travelers were turning in for the night. As an honored guest, I was placed in the same area as Moses and the rest of the leading family, but the others were to sleep tonight in an area much less accommodating: The bunks of the ordinary goblins.
These were not ordinary bunk beds. First, each individual bed is twice the normal size, thickly padded, and overflowing with blankets. Second, they are stacked ten high. Third, the space between bunks is exactly four inches taller than the tallest goblin.
So, basically, if you sit up you bang your head very badly.
I grin to myself, and slip into a dream-filled sleep.

Saturday, November 17, 2012

~~For Glowstone: Angel's Promise~~

The girl you want
The light in the dark
Strong and alive
I'll reach out to you

If you'll pull me away
Away from my past
The things that haunt me
Will you dry my eyes?

Will you wipe away
The makeup that hides
The scars from skin
Eaten away by acidic tears

Will you love me
When you see
Every bit of me?
Will you still care?

When you see
How tarnished my halo is
Will you love me still?
If you do

I won't ever go
I'll always remain
Soaring high, feeling free
If you just love me

If you hold me tight
I'll fly away with you tonight
I'll keep you safe
If you do the same for me...

~~Forever Isn't Good Enough~~

Slipping inside
To the maze
Where I don't need to hide
I hear you call
Asking me to fall
Entering the world
Where you never cease
To amaze me once again
I come and find you
Working as always
Waiting for me
I smile, and can't wait
Running to your side
You turn to me
And smile
"Here again, little one?"
I nod, hoping
You're glad to see me
"Always, Sir!"
I say happily
Nuzzling against your side
You smile, shaking your head
"Of course you're here....
"You're always here
"When I need someone
"To hurt...."
I tremble, mewing in fear
"B-But Sir....I'll be here forever...."
I stammer, the question obvious:
'Will you always want to hurt me?'
You smirk down at me
Hearing the fear
And nod simply
"Forever isn't good enough
"For me to stop
"Loving controlling you."
I tremble, knowing
I have no choice
It's you, or the lonely maze again
I close my eyes
And offer to you
My collar-enclosed neck
You snap a leash on
Stand, and pull me
Away, deeper
Into the unlit maze

~~I Guess I'm Fine~~

Little smiles
All of them true
Grace my lips
I laugh
And nuzzle close
To the sweater-clad chest
Of the man I love
His arm
Wraps around my shoulders
Clutching me to him
He pets my hair
Softly and soothingly
My eyes drift shut
I feel
Alive
I feel
Free
With him, right here
Right now, in his arms
Crazy as it seems
I do love him
When he's here
But when he's not
I go numb again
And drift once more
Still
It seems like
We are doing okay
Over seven months now....
What do we do, after so long?
We still laugh
We still love
We still kiss
We still hug
We still cuddle close
We still watch YouTube videos
We still play on the XBOX together
We still are awesome
So...I guess
That as long as he's around
I'm perfectly fine
Happy, even
Alive
But...When he's not?
I guess I'm fine still....Maybe

~~Not Your Angel~~

What's that you say?
I belong to you?
What, that's a collar
You hold in your hands?
For me?
No, no, no!
Don't you see?
I can't be your girl
I never said I was
I just said I might be
I told you I loved you

But needed some time
I was honest and true

About my situation with you
But apparently
You didn't listen to me
You can spank me
That is, if I'll let you
You can yell at me
If you think I'll listen
You can kiss me
If I don't turn away
But chances are
I'm not your angel
I'm just a girl
Trying to live
When herself
She can barely forgive
For a past
She can't forget
For a future
She can't imagine
For a present
I won't ever admit to anyone
Much less you
Who claims to own me
When you don't even
Know me.....

~~Note: It's written as a message to all perverts out there who seem continually fascinated with getting me as their slave. I am sick of the online world....Need a new hobby!~~

~~Simplicity is Sexy~~

I don't think you realize
The kind of girl I am
I'd rather play Minecraft
Than work on my tan

I don't think you see
What you get into with me
I never hide how weird I am
Nor hide my agony

I don't think you know
How crazy I can get
The voices and Figments
All the things I won't forget

I don't think you can believe
How incredible I act
When in reality
Me being incredible is a fact

I don't think you understand
The extent of my ego
It goes high above my wall
As well as below

I don't think you can tell
How happy I can be
When there's time to be free
Because, after all, simplicity is sexy....