~~Memory of a Master~~

I suddenly grow frightened

Fall off my chair

And stand

But you simply pet my hair

And pull me to you

Looking into my eyes

Looking for something, anything, true

Something other than the lies

My eyes drop to the floor

Avoiding your searching gaze

That seeks to find my core

And expose it to the light of day

You smile and whisper soothingly

Telling me I am fine

I attempt to flee

But you say commandingly, "You're mine."

I freeze, and look up at you

But then I tremble and remember

Your love for me is true

As it has been true since November

The fateful nights when I fell

Collapsed by your side

And you pulled me out of hell

And opened me when I tried to hide

You smiled, and whispered my name

Soothingly, lovingly

For a moment, I forget you're just a player in the game

And believe you do love me

I press close to you, smiling again

Trying to believe I'm safe here

But god only knows when

I'll feel fear

Fear of you, of me

Of being hurt, destroyed

Of suffering agony

The familiar suffering of 'just another toy.'