I should be asleep. But...I'm not. And.....I've barely slept. Barely eaten. I don't know anything anymore. Everything is going so fast.......There's nothing left that I can understand......
Hey kiddies.......Would you forgive me if I just walked away forever? From all of this?
Would you forgive me if I never posted on here again?
Never Tweeted?
Never answered emails?
Deactivated everything and just walked away?
Forever?
I doubt you would. *Dramatic sigh.*
Which is why I won't.
Kiddies....You guys know how hard this is on me. How much I'm hurting. How I'm breaking.
How I'm looking for a way to self-destruct.
Kiddies, I love you.
I just can no longer control the path of my life.
Tolga is gone.
Dylan still loves me.
I belong to my Wolf.
And...Emily hates me......
I know that's old news kiddies, but.....I just.......I just can't anymore......
And Joseph....*Laughs.* Why do I still even bother mentioning him?
It doesn't matter anymore world.
None of this matters anymore.
Can I forgive myself for the things I did with Tolga and how much I hurt both him, Emily, Dylan, and god only knows who else? Can I atone for the wrongs I have committed and the mistakes I have made? Can I trust myself to not destroy everything I have worked so hard to get? Can I remain loyal to someone I will barely get the chance to speak to?
Can I love someone when I doubt I can even love myself?
Kiddies........Kill me.....
Yours Truly,
Black Rabbit, Princess, and Angel.
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