~~Considerations: Life Post~~

Hello my loves--tis I, your  faithful (not) Blogger. x3 I had my French exam today, and I think it went really well. At least it's over with anyways....

Anywho, I'm planning on continuing HER this weekend--which means posting the next four chapters that are sitting completed on my laptop....I need to edit the chapters on the blog, so maybe a quick read through of them would be useful. The chapter list can be found on the new ~~Stories~~ page.

And I'm also considering making an 18+ site.....I do so love writing, and writing things 18+ might just be a hell of a lot of fun. And HER is soon going to turn into erotica I think....Not my intention when I wrote it but the whole fact that She does what She does makes it quite erotic....

Well my loves, I must sleep now.

Au revior!

~~ERM Whut?--Life Post~~

They keep looking at my boobs.

Not that I'm complaining--I have very nice boobs, apparently. And right now I'm wearing a shirt with a low neckline. So they're starting at my boobs.

Who are they, you ask?

Older guys. Of course they're older guys.

Seriously, why does no one my age ever give me a second glance? It's annoying as heck....

I kinda appreciate the attention but I've got a boyfriend, one who I adore and love very, very much. I don't feel like getting involved and I've had enough of being turned into nothing more than an object.

*Sighs.*

Ah well....I guess there's not much I can do about it. Besides, I'm going to need to go practice taking my clothes off.....

Damn costume changes.

Au revior!

~~Definition: Me~~

Alexandra Wong, Noun. 

1. A girl of fifteen years, hair colour a mix of purple, green, gold, brown, and red. Brown/black eyes. Usually wears sophisticated clothes with a necklace, both wrists adorned with bracelets (usually black in colour) and a ring on the right middle finger (its colour varies.) During spring/fall wears black leather boots, and during summer wears flats. During winter black leather boots/boots of a different sort. Wears a lot of leather. Uses many leather one-shoulder bags to carry her things. Wears red-rimmed glasses with a geometric pattern on the sides. Weight: 170 pounds or so. Height: Five feet, six inches. Hour glass waist. Curvy.
2. A loner who doesn't talk a lot, has only a few friends, usually seen during lunch in library sitting with a Korean girl and a dark-skinned girl wearing a headscarf. Listens to music a lot. Seems pretty smart. Has a weird accent that makes her difficult to understand. Sometimes neglects personal hygiene.
3. An amazing friend who cares deeply about many people, has the biggest heart in the world, goes by the name of Angel. Has talked people out of suicide. You can trust her with her life, and when you're at her worst, she will cheer you up and help you through anything and everything at all.
4. A sexy little girl, one who may or may not be willing to do anything for you. Overcoming an addiction to webcamming, but her behaviour may or may not have changed. She is less willing now to be the way she was, but it is still apparent in her. She now regrets her past, but if you convince her, you might get lucky.
5. A girl broken beyond all repair. Treated and used wrongly by a great deal of people, has a lot of self hatred, and may or may not give a shit. She doesn't seem to care much any more, about anything or any one, and it seems difficult for her to feel. She enjoys a lot of time alone, lacks religious beliefs, and is searching for something, anything real in a world that is fake. She still has a rather positive outlook on her future, but at her core she isn't well. Help would be deeply appreciated.
6. A girl who loves anime, rock and roll music, and horror movies. She loves Black Butler, Broken Saints, Mushi-Shi, and Fruits Basket. She has a hat from Broken Saints bearing the words NUKE A GAY WHALE FOR CHRIST, a Sebastian plushie doll, and she is waiting for the Mushi-Shi live action movie to come in the mail along with the Black Butler dvds of seasons one and two. She listens to German Rock, Vocaloid, Gothic music, some metal, screamo, punk, Italian, and a lot of other kinds of music--everything but most of pop and country. And jazz. She doesn't really like jazz music. And her favorite movies are Insidious, Darkness Falls, and Cube.
7. Me.

~~Watch Me Fall~~

"Watch me burn....." I whisper

"Watch me run from you...."

I laugh harshly

"Watch me flee from your grasp

"Watch me hate you

"Watch me!"

You only laugh, and pull me closer

"You don't belong to anyone else

"You've always been mine

"Always and forever."

I yell and try to break free

But I can't summon the strength

I fall and go weak

Collapse back into your arms

Unable to flee

Just wanting you

"See? You can't fight

"You're mine again....

"And it's been so long

"Since I felt this good....."

I cry when you tell me that....

Tears of joy....

~~I Need.....--A List Post~~

• I need someone to tell me it's all going to be okay
• I need some time to let my heart heal
• I need a song to speak to me
• I need someone to hold me
• I need to understand why my former Master still makes my heart ache
• I need to understand why he came back to me
• I need to breathe
• I need to be happy
• I need to live
• I need someone to love me
• I need someone safe
• I need someone to explain to me my life
• I need someone to keep me safe
• I need love at home
• I need my family to know....Know about me
• I need to blog more......

~~I'm Trying~~

I'm trying to believe

That all the words you say

Aren't meant to control me

That you don't want to hurt me

But they tell me things

Things to make me listen

And I try to ignore it

But I need to believe it

But if I believe it

If I accept it as real

Won't it make us fake?

Will it be something I can take?

I need something real

But the way you make me feel

It's turned into my addiction

You're one hell of a temptation

I feel so loved

So cared about

And with the others, it's not this way

So won't you just give me more today?

I don't get love at home

No one here knows me

But when I'm with you

It all feels true

I'm trying to figure out

Who I should believe

Won't you tell me you love me?

And be true to me...?

~~Quick Post about Nothing: Life Post~~

Oh kiddies, I am so tired right now. And I have nothing to do for an hour. And I'm sitting in a class room typing and ignoring the world. I love my life. And I really do not enjoy this at all. But hey, I spent like twenty minutes or more sitting in a guidance office waiting for my appointment. And yay. But well I think it was worth it....

So finally I'm sitting her quietly, not thinking about anything at all, and just basically writing an email to my blog because I am just cool like that, and occasionally being quizzed by Alex Pratt about geography.

I'm so very bored.

So very very bored. But we're now studying for geo, so I think I'll leave you guys for now x3 I love you!